We're back!!

Wow, almost a year since I have blogged. We have been so wrapped up in our lives with raising Noah. He definitely keeps us on our toes. He is 14 months now. He is a wonderful toddler. He was a wonderful baby as well. He has been a sick baby, but I'll take that any day over something more serious. He got tubes put in his ears at 6 months old. And he has only had one ear infection since then. It's been wonderful. Noah started walking at 9 months old. And is literally running now. He will be our lil athlete. Noah does have to go get an EGD and a colonoscopy done on feb. 16th. He has been having diarrhea for almost two months now. They are checking him for ciliac disease and acid reflux and H. Ploryi. I just pray nothing is serious.

On a another note, Noah started full time daycare in October of last year. He loves it. He moved up out of the baby room the beginning of this year. It wasn't a good transition for him cause he loved his other teacher. We did cry every morning when I left for the first week. But now he walks in there like a champ. His great grandparents miss him so much. They do go and pick him up sometimes when they haven't seen him in awhile.

Noah has had 9 hair cuts before his first birthday. His hair grows so fast. We had his first birthday party at our house. We decorated it in polar express train theme since my Christmas tree and decorations were already up. We had 50 people in our house. It was so crowded but he had a great birthday party.

Noah can say all kinds of words. It's so cute. He can say bath, drakers, ball, mama, dada, bye bye, nana, papa, and bite. He is getting so smart.

Me and Bj started bible study class back up since Noah has been born. Thank you to his nana and papa for keeping noah for us so we can go. We want to raise Noah up knowing God, talking about him openly. We are working on bowing our head when we say prayer and saying amen. I just pray he grows up following the lord in all he does.

I'll post pics soon of our lil guy.

Catching up

ok I know I have went missing. Well lets see where I left off and how much has went by.

Well we have welcomed our lil man into the world on December 7th 2010 and 4:48 pm. Weighing 7lbs and 12 oz and 19 1/4 inches long. I was induced labor on the 7th at 8:00 am and had him at 4:48 pm. Labor was hetic and ended with a great prayer for a healthy baby and mommy. Due to I had two placenta's Noah heart rate went down with every contraction to 50 and I had to be put on oxygen for Noah. Once his heart rate went down so low they had to get him out fast. They had to woke me up to push and would have been 40 mintues of pushing turned into 10 mintues to get him out. They had to use the forcepts to get him out and needless to say Bj went white at that point. Thank goodness my mother and mother in law was in the room to help bj out. Once they got Noah out he was not crying. But after all he was a healthy boy. We got to come home two days later and he has been a great baby. He sleeps through the night since we brought him home. He never learned to breast feed so I just pumped and gave it to him in a bottle for the first three weeks. After that I was not producing enough for him so we switched to formula. He does great on that.

I went back to work when he was 6 weeks old. I thought that was going to be hard but I was ready to go back. I could not be a stay at home mom. I was really bored. Noah is staying with bj's nana and papa til beginning of april. They are enjoying him so much and he loves it as well.

Noah is growing everyday. We went for his 2 month checkup on the 17th and he weighs 12 lbs and 2oz. and is 24 1/2 inches long. He had two ear infections and we had no clue. So it will be hard to tell if he is hurting or not cause he doesn't cry. We have to take him to children's hospital to get an ultrasound of his hips because when the dr was checking his hips he kept feeling a popping and he wants to make sure they are not popping out of place. I pray that everything is just fine. Please keep Noah in yall's prayers for tuesday. He got his shots as well and he did great. He got through the second shot then started crying. He didn't cry for long though. Poor guy has been running a fever since then cause of the ear infections. But he is still all smiles still.

He is wearing a size 1 dipers, 0-3 month pants and 0-3 tops. He got his first haircut a week ago. Well we did it ourself. We just trimmed his side burns and took alittle off the top. His hair is so crazy we can not lay it down no matter what we do.

He sure does loves his daddy and his grandpa's. Mommy or grandma's can be talking to him and he will be smiling but when a grandpa or daddy start talking to him he laughs at loud. But he really is a momma's boy. lol

Me and bj are doing great. We are just trying to get into a routine of going back to work and taking care of noah. No one could prepare you for taking care of a baby. Don't get me wrong I love every second of it. Noah is a great baby too so I could not complain. He could be sitting on the couch all by him self for hours and he will be fine sitting there. The only time he really cries is when he is hungry, wet or really really tired.

Bj got another promotion at work. He is not moving to inside sales. He is alittle nervous but he will do great at it. He starts that on March 1st. It will be great cause now we can take turnes taking noah to his nana and papa's. On april 4th is when noah starts daycare. Now that day will be a hard day for me cause I don't know the people keeping him. I might cry my whole way to work that day.

Here are some pictures of Noah as he grows.

This is mostly how noah's hair stays.

Noah loves his dog scout.Noah's two month old picture.

This is Noah's cousin Zander. They are going to be best buds. They are 5 weeks apart.

31 Weeks

ok ok, I know I have been horrible about blogging. We have just been so busy. As soon as I get home from work I am just so tired I don' t feel like doing anything. I am 31 weeks. Only 9 more to go. I am on the count down. We head back to the doctor on tuesday and just a regular check up and then I will start going every two weeks. I have a 4D ultrasound scheduled for Oct. 18th and I can not wait. I can't wait to see his little face. I do beleive he is going to be just like BJ due to all the hiccups he gets at different times in the day. Bj's mom told me Bj got the hiccups all the time as well. Well so far I have gained 19lbs and I feel huge. Man it is a big difference to carry almost 20 lbs around. The only complaint I have is that I can not breath out of my nose and it is driving me crazy. My pregancy book says the inside of your nose tends to swell up and makes it hard to breath out of it. I am not a mouth breather either. lol



Hunting season as offically started and I will be a deer widow till Noah gets here on the weekends. I did tell bj he will have to cut his hunting weekends to his parents house to be closer by middle of November. I told him I didn't want him to be a hour away incase I go into labor early.



Noah is getting to know Bj voice now cause everytime Bj talks to him Noah moves. My mom got to feel him move for the first time the other day. He would never move for her when she would put her hand on my belly.



We pretty much have Noah's room ready for him. I still want to put something up on his wall about God but I haven't thought of a perfect bible verse yet. Baby showers will start this weekend and I am so excited about that.



Here is a picture of me at 31 Weeks.

20 Weeks

I am 20 Weeks today. I am half way, and I feel great. The only think I am not liking about the whole pregnacy is the raging hormones. I can be in a great mood one second and then instantly in a really bad mood or crying. I am not my self at all. I find myself being very irritable alot. I love my growing belly. It makes me happy to see that he is growing. I started to feel him move. I felt his first movement about 2 weeks ago. It feels like my stomach is twitching. Now I can feel it on the outside now. Bj still hasn't been able to feel it cause everytime Noah starts to move bj is not around or asleep.

I forgot I have not blogged in awhile. We went to find out the sex of the baby and It a Boy!!!! When we got to find out, My mom, Bj and bj's mom all got to go with us. Bj's mom started crying and my mom thought it was so neat. It is so amazing what God can do. I am so grateful for what God has done for us in our lives. We decided to name him Noah James. He is very healthy and everything looks great. I did find out that I do have two placenta's. I was pregnant with two but one died and the placenta didn't come out so I will carry it all the way. I didn't ask the doctor about it cause I was on cloud nine when I found out he was healthy. We go back to the doctor August 3rd so that is when I will ask all about it. I don't know if it will get bigger as Noah grows or if it is carrying blood and if it will take up some of Noah's room in there.

We almost finished Noah room. We decided to do it in razorback theme. As soon as we found out we started on it. Our guest room, which is Noah's room now was already in razorback so we decided to stick with it. I went to garage sales this past weekend and bought so many clothes for him. Some still had tags on them. Here on some pics of his room and me at 20 weeks.

Me at 20 weeks. I have gained 9 lbs already.

Me and Bj redid this dresser. We sanded it down and painted it black. We have to go buy silver handles for it and put it on there now. Bj is very proud of it. I thought it turned out pretty good. Bj said he would like to do one for his brother travis when they get Zander's room for him. He really enjoyed doing it. These are half of the clothes I bought for Noah at the garage sales. The other half are in the drawers. It was so much fun doing that. I can't wait to start dressing him.

Baby update at 16 weeks

We went to the doctor today and he said everything looks great. The heartbeat was 156 beats a minute. The doctor said it sounds like a girl but who knows. We get to find out what we are having on July 6th at 8:30 in the morning. I can't wait. I am so excited. I just hope the baby will cooperate. My mom and Bj's mom is going to be able to go the the doctor with us when we find out so I am glad they can be involved in it as well. I just pray to God that our baby will be healthy and everything will got great. It is all in God's hands and what he has in plan for us. I am feeling much better during this trimester. I have bad acid reflux but I guess I better get used to that. I can still wear my clothes but I am wearing the bella band to cover up the upbutton and zipped pants. I don't want to go out and buy alot of materity clothes since I will be the biggest in the winter.

this is at 16 weeks preggo.

Me and bj bought me a new car. I am so excited. I got a 2009 Nissan Altima. Its white. I love it, and Bj loves it too since he can drive it now. My honda was a standard and he could not drive it. It is a mommy car.

As soon as we find out what we are having we are going to start doing the baby's room. We got the crib in already, it just needs to be put together. I keep going in the room and looking at it in the box. I can't wait to start doing that. I will post pics when that is ready.

Second Trimester!!!

yeaaaa, I made it to second trimester. I hope everything starts to feel alot better during this trimester. It really has not been too bad but it just seemed like the further long I got the more I got sick at night. I have learned I can not let myself get starving and let myself get over stuffed. Bj has been great. Everytime I do get sick he always brings me a wet wash cloth.



We did go to the dr. on the May 20th. We got to hear the heart beat. It was 150 beats per minute. It was so great to hear that. It was a big relief to hear it. Bj asked me after we left the dr. " how did he not know it was your heart beat?" I told him my heart don't beat that fast. He said oh yea. lol The dr. found the heart beat right away. He told me I was in the pudgy stage. haha He said ether people are thinking she is eating alot more or she is pregnant. I can' wait to really start having a belly to know I am pregnant cause right now I just look like I ate too many cookies. Here is a picture at 13 weeks and 4 days. I'm not

showing very much I know but I feel like it. I did just got buy the bella band. I love it. It is really comfortable. It holds up unbutton and zipped pants. I did go buy tennis skirts and some sun dresses to wear during the summer so when I do get alittle bigger I won't have to worry about pants. Winter will be another story.

We will got back to the dr. on the 24th of this month. We get to find out what we are having anytime after July 4th. So I am hoping the dr. will make a special appt to find out instead of waiting four more weeks after dr. appt. I will be 16 weeks when we do go back to see the dr. Bj did tell me that he wants to go to every dr. appt so I was excited that he wants to do that. I am so glad he is getting invloved and he keeps rubbing my belly and talking to Noah as he says it is. haha

We just bought our crib and mattress today for the nursery. I am so excited. I can't wait to get everything set up and find out what we are having so I can go shopping and decorate.

We have been going to the lake alot this summer and it has been a blast. We had a scare last weekend. I started to bleed but called dr. and he said everything was fine and it stopped right away. We were both so scared but it is all in God's hands and it's his plan. Bj will not let me go on the boat anymore but I don't blaim him. Our boat is really bouncy so we don't want to take a chance. So instead me and bj's grandma when shopping. I learned that when you are pregnant you do burn alot easier, and let me tell you. I roasted my back. I have to be careful now more than normal. Memorial Day this year was a blast. We had alot of family time and it was great hanging out with family and enjoying the lake.

Me and Bj just went to our first 3D movie at the imax. I know, I know, we have waited this long to go to one. It was amazing. We went and saw shrek the final chapter. It was so much fun. It was great just spending time with each other and enjoying a movie.

close to the second trimester

Well I am getting alot closer to the second trimester. I am 11 weeks this week and we get to go back to the doctor this week. We are going on thursday and bj gets to go with me this time. We will be able to hear the baby's heartbeat this time. I am so excited. It will be a relief to hear that so I know that he or she is growing. We have decided on the names of a boy or girl. Which is a miracle cause me and bj hardly agree on anything. lol If it is a girl her name will be Kloee or Kloie. Haven't decided how to spell it yet. If it is a boy it will be Noah. We haven't thought of a middle name for Noah yet but we have one for Kloie. We are not saying till we find out for sure what we are having. First trimester has not been that bad. I do get tired more now and have gotten sick a few mornings and nights. I learned I can not eat spicy food at night becasue it makes me sick. Can't drink a coke or grape juice right when I get up cause does the same thing.

Well I already feel big and I know I know, just wait and see when I get really big. I am starting to get a little pooch. Not much of one though.

Bj finds out this wedensday what his raise will end up being. He is so excited and loves his new job. He is not used to being in a office all day. He finally learned all the parts to it and likes it very well.

Mother's day was a very good day. We went to church and then to Bj's grandparents house and then to my brother's house for my mom's side of the family. I got my first mother's day present. It was so nice cause I really didn't think about it. My brother's girlfriend got me a card and a plant in a pot that had happy Mother's day on it. I am so ready to be a mom and have a little one and have the relationships my mom has with her kids. My mom is very close to me and my brother. My mom is my best friend. I can't wait to be a mom and raise my kids the way my mom has raised me and has been a great role model.

Update in our lives

Update: Well we are not having twins, it is just one baby. Thank you lord. I was so relieved. We got to have an ultrasound when we went to the doctor. I had to drink 48 ounces of water before the ultrasound and could not go to the bathroom before ultrasound. My ultrasound was at 9:00 in the morning. So I started drinking my water at 6:00 that morning and was going to finish the rest on my way to work. Well it hit me on the way to work and I was almost in tears. Had to go to the bathroom and start drinking again. We ended up having to have a transvaginal ultrasound so drinking all that water did not mean anything. We got to see the baby and the heart beat. The heartbeat was 138. Very good. It was so neat to see that. Bj's face was priceless when he saw it. It felt more real to him now. I was relieved when I saw the baby. Since I haven't had very few pregnancy symptoms. I have been getting sick some few mornings. I did get sick last week every morning. I haven't been really tired but I do go to bed at 9 or 9:30 but thats normal for me anyways. We are due December 8th. I have been getting alot of headaches though. So far my first trimester has not been that bad. My next appt. is May 20th and I will be 11 weeks by then. I will be 9 weeks on wed. I bought my first box of diapers today. Girls at work told me to start buying diapers every trip I make to walmart now. They are not cheap. I can't wait to start getting the baby room together and start buying stuff.

We also have so great news to share. Bj got a huge promotion at work this week. He was working and the vice president ran him down at work and told him he had alot of initiative working. An hour later they called him in his office and offered him a job being inventory manager over the whole warehouse where he is working. He moved up 5 positions. He will have his own office and they told him he will be making ALOT more money. He was so excited. He has only been at his job for a month. There is only one more spot to move up to and that is a salesman. God is really working in our lives everyday. That fell at the perfect timing in our lives. God really knows what he is doing with our lives.

Exciting News!!

Well I went to the Dr on thursday of last week, I told yall now we just have to wait and see what my body does. Well on day 37, which was the day before I had to go to the dr. I decided to take a test before I went to the dr on thursday. Well I woke up really early cause I could not sleep. I went and took a test and.... it came back POSTIVE. I was not believing it. I looked at it again and then got so excited. I went and woke BJ up and asked him if he was ready to be a dad. He didn't beleive me at first till I showed him the test. He wanted me to go take another just in case. So I did and it came back the same thing. Well we decided not to tell anyone till I went to the doctor the next day to confirm it. Went to the dr and he said I was really pregnant. He told me I was only a month pregnant so I have to got back on April, 22 for a ultrasound to make sure we are not having twins. Because I took that fertality drug there is a 25 percent chance. God answered our prayers and we are so grateful for it. I could not quit thinking God for this answered prayer. Now I am just praying for a healthy baby. When I go back to the dr. I will be 6 weeks and two days. I am just praying there is something there and a heart beat. I know God got us this far that he will take care of us whatever he has in plan for us. I have been sick a few mornings, but thats about it. I havn't been really tired yet or anything. I will let yall know what the ultrasound reveals in two weeks. Just keep us in your prayers.

alittle stressed and depressed

Well my body did its thing before I had to head to the doctor. Which was a relief. I got put on Clomid, which is a fertality drug. yes there is a small chance of twins but only a small. I had to only take if for five days. Hopefully it will make me ovualate and be regular. Now We are just waiting. I do go back to the doctor next week on the 8th. So we shall see what he says. I got depressed last week and bj told me we were in this together and not blaiming each other for this. Made me feel alittle better but its just so hard to see everyone else around me becoming parents or getting pregnant. Not that I am not happy for them cause I am but its hard not to be jealous and wanting it too.


My parents are going to get a divorce and that plays a big tow on me as well. It is so hard because for birthdays we always go out to eat or my mom cooks as a family and my birthday is next week. So we wont have a family get together for the first year so it will be very hard. So I chose to go to lunch with my mom and my nana on my birthday. Bj is going to take me to dinner that night. I can't beleive I am turning 25. I feel like I am 16 still.


Mom's body scan results came back and there was no cancer anywhere else. That was a answered prayer. God is really helping me through all of this crazy life right now. If I did not have him I would not know where to begin.


We had a girls weekend this past weekend at the lake house. There was 8 of us and we had a great time. We played games and we went to eat at fisherman's warf saturday night and played more games. We all just got away and had a great time.

God will take care of us, he always does

Mom went in last week to get her other side of her thyroid taken out. She did very good. Good news is the results came back and there was no cancer in that side. God answered a prayer. We are very blessed. She now has to go on a iodine diet for 7 to 10 days. You don't realize how much stuff has iodine in it. She can only eat 5 oz of meat a day. She said she will be in a horrible mood cause she can't eat anything. Then she goes in for outpatient to get her radiation pill. The reason she has to go on that type of diet is cause the radiation pill loves iodine and if her body is starved of it then it will go straight to the source. Then after that she has to get a body scan to make sure cancer is not anywhere else and then she will start her thyroid meds. Then she will be in the clear with lots of medical bills which she is very stressed over. But I know God got her through this and he will get her through that.

I went to my primary care doctor last wesenday cause bj kept telling me I needed to go get a physical since I have never recieved one before. Well I went and the doctor told me my aorta is very prominant in my stomach. So I had to go get an ultrasound and haven't recived the results back in yet.

Well me and bj have been trying to have a baby for almost a year now. Well I got off the pill last april. I was on the pill for seven years and had a period every month. Well I was irrigular before i got put on the pill. Now that i got off the pill I do not have a period. My OBGYN told me to wait 9 months to see if I start on my own. I finally did at 9 months and the dr. said I should be good to go. Well now it is day 59 and nothing. Took test and negative. Called dr. and he told me to wait 90 days and if nothing then he will give me something to make me start and then start me on fertility drugs. Well we have a long road ahead of us. It is very hard to be patient and wait when we both really want this. I now God is in control and he knows what is best for us. We just have to let God do his work in us and it will happen when God wants it to happen. Just keep us in your prayers please. I will let yall know when I head back to the dr. in april.

Since I have been so stressed out bj did something really nice for me to just relax. I got home on a friday night after work and he closed my eyes and walked me to our bedroom. He told me what I needed to wear was hanging on the door. It was my dress that I wore going away from our wedding. When I was getting ready he made me a margarita. Then when I was ready he walked me out to a candle lit dinner with an appitizer in the middle of the table. The lights were all dimmed. He had chilled wine in the middle of the table. When we sat down to eat he put music on to play in the background. He made a new receipe called chicken tofe. It was chicken theighs with bacon wrapped around and cream of chicken, sour cream, cream cheese on top served on a bed of rice, with green beans. He did so good. It made me cry. He is some pics of what we have been doing in the beginning of 2010.

God answers prayers!!!

This past week or so has been a really bad week for us. Last weekend topped it all off. I have been praying for my parents every night. I pray for God to soften my dad's heart and let him back in. My dad has not been living a christian life like he says he is. My dad has harden his heart to God and to everyone else around him. I try to tell him that God is not going to answer his prayers cause he is not giving anything back to him. His life is in shambles. Needless to say my mom told my dad she was done. She didn't want to do this anymore. My dad fell hard. I have only seen my dad cry once or twice in my life. My dad called me crying so hard that I could not understand him. Begging to not let mom do this. He loves her so much. I told him it was not my decision to make. It is her life. He wanted me to talk to mom cause she listens to me. My dad is a manic Depression. He was talking about killing him self and text me that he loved me very much and hates the way its got to end. I got very upset. Bj got mad cause he just said dad wouldn't do it. Needless to say his dad killed him self when my dad was 17 years old. Bj called my brother to see if he got the same text. Needless to say he didn't. My brother had been drinking that night and went to my dad's house and through him on the ground and told him he hated him and always have. Told him he wished he was dead. That did not help the situation any better. Bj was just upset because he was tired of me being put in the middle of my parents problems. I told him I would not make him choose between his parents. Then I asked him about forgiveness. God forgave us and he tells us we are suppose to forgive others. No matter what my dad does I will still love him because he is my dad. I might not agree with him one bit but he is still my dad. I forgave my dad. My dad text me this week and asked if he could talk to me after work and I said yes. He sat me down and appogized for everything he has done to hurt me and all his actions. That is a big step for my dad to say he is sorry. He said he was wrong and he loved my mother so much. He also said that if it doesn't work out with mom then he didn't want to be here. He said he has to make alot of changes. Which he does for mom to come back. He is getting back into church and he said God has to be number one is his life. I am so glad for that. That makes me feel so much better. Needless to say mom and dad went out on their first date lastnight, trying to see if it can work out. God answered my prayer cause he soften dad's heart to come back to him. I want to thank everyone for all the prayers that have been coming our way. Thank yall so much. My brother did text my dad and said he really did love him and he was sorry. He was just made that night and didn't mean that things he said.

Life can get complicated at times

Sorry about not writinng, I have been awful. We have been so busy. Well lets see, what have we done. Pretty much, all we have been doing is working and bj's been working and going to school. He got throught this semester by his hair on his chin. He made all C's, at least it is passing. I know he is so tired of school. I don't blaim him. I have been trying to stay together with everything going on with my family. My parents are saperated and that is really hard on me and my brother. At least it has brought me and my brother alot closer. My mom found out she has throid cancer and already got half of her thyroid removed and has to go back in feburary to get the other half removed. It is really hard on her because she has to go through this with my dad and deal with her surgeries. I keep telling her it is in God's hands and he knows what is best for her. She is a very strong lady. Bj has been so good and has always been there for me when I just need to talk. When we found out about the results of mom's surgery, I just had a crying spell and bj just held me and let me cry. I could not have asked God for a better husband. He is my rock.

Me and the girls planned a trip to branson two weeks ago and it was so much fun. It was fun just to get away and forget about things and just shop. We shopped and shopped and ate. It was good bonding time.

Me and bj just opened chistmas presents for each other, a day before chirstmas. But at least we waited this long to open them. He got me, two pull overs, Frappiccino maker, target gift card, stuff to make frappiccinos, a cup to put in it, tennis shoes, a soft throw, and some warm socks. He did very good. He loved his game camera, fishing pole holder, and his jeans. We had a very good christmas and we have more to come tomorrow, that is if we can drive there since all the roads are flooded here in saline county. Bj tryed to make it to work this morning but could not make it cause the roads were all flooded.


We want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I hope everyone has a safe and happy holidays. We just want to remind everyone, don' t forget the reason for the season. Jesus died on the cross for our sins. Remember God loves you and always will. He will never let you down if you just give your life to him. He will take care of you and that is what I got to keep telling my self.

Just sit back and enjoy what you have now

Ever wonder why things happen the way they do? I do all the time. At the time of them happening I don't like if it don't go the way I want it to go, but later down the road and looking back I am very grateful for the ways things turn out. God really does know the bigger picture and knows what is best for us in our lives at the time and for the future. I am very grateful for everything we have. We would not have any of the things we have without God. I just have to wait and watch what God is doing in our lives right now instead of waiting day by day and wondering why.

With everything that is happending to others around us and with their relationships, makes me very grateful for my relationship with bj. He is so good to me and very loving. He is always there for me when I need him and I am always there for him. With hunting season just opening we don't get to spend out of time together. We only get to spend like 3 or 4 hours together a day because we both work and he will be gone every weekend. If we did not have God in our relationship then we would be in trouble.

The number one thing to remember is God will take care of you if you just let him and ask him for help and give back to him for what he wants.

God will take care of us!!

ok, what have we been up to, we have been working and working. Last weekend we had a girls weekend at the lake house. It was me and all the girls on my dad's side of the family. There was 12 of us there. We left right after work on friday and came back on sunday. That was the best weekend yet. It was so nice to get away and just be girls and not wives. Me and mom and my brother's girlfriend leslie had alittle to much fun friday night and saturday was not a good day. It was nice to get away from everything that has been going on here in the past few months. Needless to say my family has been going through a lot here lately. But the good thing that has come out of is so far is that is has brought me and my brother alot closer. I know if God put you there he will pull you through it. I just have to have faith in him and trust him to pull me through it.

Bj's birthday was this past friday and I got up at 5:30 and made him a big breakfast. I made him a breakfast casserole, bacon, chocolate gravy, and biscuits. He woke up to early cause he smelled it. He was very surprised I cooked him breakfast because I am not really a breakfast cooker, he is. It was very good though.

I have alot on my mind these days and going through alot. I just keep praying and praying for things to get better and I do beleive God will take care of me and get me through it. I just would like everyone to keep me in yall's prayers.

first year anniversary

Well we just got back from our annivesary. Bj did sooooo good. About a month ago I got mad at him because he said he had regionals tournment on our anniversary and he said we can just celebrate it the weekend before and it wasn't that big of a deal. Well needless to say I got my feelings hurt. I told him it hurt my feelings. Well he must of saw the light and he planned a big weekend for us. Well He played his first game on friday night at 7:30. Well they lost the first game. So then they played at 2:30 on saturday and if they won that then they played at 7:30 on saturday night. Well our anniversary was on saturday. He surprised me with a one hour massage and a pedicure and a manicure with my mom. We went to rejuvinate salon at 10:30 and got all pretty. It was very relaxing. We both needed it very badly. While he was coaching baseball we went and got all pretty. Mom brought me back home and bj got home shortly after. He just told me to pack my bags and pack a cocktail dress. He finally told me where we were going when we started heading that way. We ended up staying at the peabody hotel, where we stayed our wedding night. We also ate at the restrauant there at the hotel. After we ate then we went back up to our room and tempted to eat our one year old cake. It didn't look bad but was it. The icying was soooo hard but the cake part was not too bad. We just took one bite each and said we at least tryed it. Then we rented a movie off the tv that was still in theatres. It was so nice and relaxing. He did such a good job. I also surprised him with a brand new wake board and along with a note saying I will wake up with you in the morning at 6:00 to take him wakeboarding. I must really love him if I get up that early on my saturdays to sleep in. lol Here are some few pics that we took last night.

Getting used to everything

ok well I am getting horrible at posting on these things. Well fourth of july was fun. We got to take out boat out for the first time at the lake. We went down to the lake house on Lake Hamilton to meed bj's family there for the weekend. We took it out that saturday morning and went skiing and tubing and wake boarding. It was lot of fun. The guy we bought the boat from gave us all their life jackets and ropes and a wakeboard. It was very nice of him. Since the boat is a jet boat it sucks water up and pushes it out. Well needless to say we sucked up a piece of wood and didn't know it. We did not figure it out till the next day when we pulled it out of the water. Bj, me and his cousin Heath were trying to get these things out to look down in the moter and we could not get them out. We got them unlocked and we thought we locked them back. Well me and Bj went out on Lake Ouachita the next day and took the boat out for a spin to see if the wood was the problem. Well them things we were trying to get out popped out and it shut off the motors. Needless to say we were taking in water. So we pulled it up to the bank and tryed to get the water out. We putted back to get the boat back on the trailor and pulled the plug and water ran out forever. We almost sank the boat and that was sooooo scary. We took it back out and I pulled him skiing and he pulled me. We have had alot of troubles with the boat. We started to take it out this past weekend and needless to say it broke. Me and bj were going to take my parents out to the lake so I called them to tell them we can't go. My dad said we can go and pack a lunch and he can look at the boat to see what is wrong with it since he used to be a mechanic. He looked at it and figured out what was wrong with it. We loaded up and went to the lake and my dad and bj fixed it and we spent the rest of saturday out on the lake. We almost ran out of gas so we had to switch it to reserve to get us back in. We waited to late to go back home before dark so we got to park our boat at trader bills for the night and we stayed the night at the lake house. We went putt putt and out to eat. It was great family time together.

Bj and I have been doing good. I am just trying to survive with the baseball coaching. I am getting used to it since this is what he will be doing in his real job. I just need something to occupy my time. lol Bj has regionals the day of our one year anniversary and I got upset about it but he has planned something special for us. We won't tell me what it is and where we are going. He is very sweet when he wants to be. I do know what I am getting for our anniversary though. I am getting another band on the other side of my wedding ring and getting them all put together.

Drake and Buddy are doing really good. I just bought them a little kiddy pool because it is sooo hot outside for them during the day. They have not got in it yet but I think they will to cool off sometime.

That is about all that is happening to us right now. I will post pics of the boat and let you know where we are going on our anniversary.

Vacation

Well we have been going here lately alot. We have been so grateful to do all these things. We just got back from vacation in Gulf Shores for a week. We had a blast. It was so relaxing. We started driving down on friday right after work. We stopped in hattisburg Alabama. I was about a 6 hour drive there. We stayed the night in a hotel and got up early and started to drive three more hours to Gulf Shores. We arrived about 12 in gulf shores and went and got out keys the condo. Once we got there and fought our condo but realized we are going to have to bring our luggage up four flights of stairs. No elevator. It was so fun. But we got it all unloaded. Our condo was right on the beach and it was so nice. We arrived and we did an online grocery shopping and we we got there our groceries were already in the refrigerator and in the cabinets for us. We went straight down to the beach and set our chairs up so we could leave them there all week. We basically stayed out on the beach all week long. We met a family from Louisville and hung out with them all week and nights. They brought the game bago. It is kinda like hourse shoes but it is two boards with a hole in the middle and you toss bags filled with beans and try to make it into the hole. If you land in the hole you get three points and if you land on the board then you get one point. Me and Bj teamed up the first day and we never lost a game. Then we teamed up the last day and never got beat again. We had to call them hogs after that. The family also made their own wine. That the soooo good wine. It was cranberry and very sweet. Bj made breakfast for me 3 mornings and then we went out to eat. We ate out at the oyster house. It was very good. We also ate out at Lamberts. Where they throw rolls at you. Also bj found out that seaguls can catch food it the air as they fly. Bj was feeding all the seaguls and we saw one with a broken leg. We both got really really dark and love that. We also saw dalphins three mornings. We also went crab hunting at night and saw 20 sand crabs in one night. That was really fun. We had a great time together and it was nice to get away from all the hetic stuff back at home. Drake and Buddy got left at home while we were gone. My mother in law came and fed them every day and also fed them treats as well. Needless to say they wanted treats more than their dog food.

We arrived home on friday about 5:30 and then we went to the lake in hot springs on saturday at 9:30. Bj's family was down this weekend and we went down there and spent time with them.

Our other exciting news is we just bought a boat. We are really exicted about that. It is a yamaha jet boat that seats 7 people. It has a canopy and a pylone so we can wake board. We werent going to get it because we figured we needed to save our money for a baby but we also have wanted a boat. A baby is not here yet so we decided on a boat. If a baby arrives soon then we will be very joyous for two things.

Here are some pics from our vacation.

Alot going on

We got back from Dallas on monday. We didn't go to the rangers and yankees game becasue bj did not feel good. I had to drive us all the way back home and we would have gotten back really late. We had a good time. We got to visit with bj's cousin's and saw their house. It was really nice. We grilled out and drank and just hung out. The boys went to walmart to buy a bebe gun to go rat hunting. They have a big rat that comes every night along their power lines and caroline wanted it dead. So we sat out their on sunday night waiting for him to come but he never showed up. We left the hunt up to aaron now.

We are going to vacation in two weeks. I can not wait. I need a vacation soooo bad. We are going to Gulf Shores. We got to order our groceries online and they will put our groceries in our condo the day we arrive. That way we don't have to bother going to the grocery store when we get there. I thought that was a great idea.

The Kenny chesney concert was the best concert yet. Where we sat Kenny came up to us so close when he came in. He put on a really good show. here are some pictures from the concert.

ok where do I start, lets see. Bj had to go to the eye doctor last week cause his eyes are getting so bad. I finally got him to go. The doctor told him he has an eye stigmatism. He has to wear glasses all the time now. He and I are getting used to him wearing glasses. He looks good in them. I got to hear him complain alot about them but I guess that is what wives are for.

We are going to Kenny Chesney concert tomorrow night with our friends Judy and Daniel. We are very excited about that. We are sitting on the floor. That was my birthday present BJ got me. I will post pics up after we get back.

Then Memorial day weekend we are going to Dallas to see BJ's cousin's new house they just bought. We were going to go down a couple of weekends in the past but we decided not to go because we had to much going on. We are going to stay there till monday. I can't wait for a day off of work.

Then in four more weeks, no is counting or anything we are going to Gulf shores for a whole week. I can not wait to get away and lay out on the beach. We rented a condo for 6 nights right on the beach just the two of us and we are going to enjoy every minute of it. My mother in law is going to come over and feed her grandchildren while we are going to be gone. Hopefully soon she will be able to say she will be having grandchildren soon.

I am just trying to get over a really bad cold now and I had to go home early from work yesterday but I am doing alittle better. Me and Dena my mother in law and my mom were going to go listen to my brother play tonight at this place in town but I didn't feel up to it so my mom and grandma went. There band is Calling Drake named after my dog Drake.