Saturday, January 23, 2010

God answers prayers!!!

This past week or so has been a really bad week for us. Last weekend topped it all off. I have been praying for my parents every night. I pray for God to soften my dad's heart and let him back in. My dad has not been living a christian life like he says he is. My dad has harden his heart to God and to everyone else around him. I try to tell him that God is not going to answer his prayers cause he is not giving anything back to him. His life is in shambles. Needless to say my mom told my dad she was done. She didn't want to do this anymore. My dad fell hard. I have only seen my dad cry once or twice in my life. My dad called me crying so hard that I could not understand him. Begging to not let mom do this. He loves her so much. I told him it was not my decision to make. It is her life. He wanted me to talk to mom cause she listens to me. My dad is a manic Depression. He was talking about killing him self and text me that he loved me very much and hates the way its got to end. I got very upset. Bj got mad cause he just said dad wouldn't do it. Needless to say his dad killed him self when my dad was 17 years old. Bj called my brother to see if he got the same text. Needless to say he didn't. My brother had been drinking that night and went to my dad's house and through him on the ground and told him he hated him and always have. Told him he wished he was dead. That did not help the situation any better. Bj was just upset because he was tired of me being put in the middle of my parents problems. I told him I would not make him choose between his parents. Then I asked him about forgiveness. God forgave us and he tells us we are suppose to forgive others. No matter what my dad does I will still love him because he is my dad. I might not agree with him one bit but he is still my dad. I forgave my dad. My dad text me this week and asked if he could talk to me after work and I said yes. He sat me down and appogized for everything he has done to hurt me and all his actions. That is a big step for my dad to say he is sorry. He said he was wrong and he loved my mother so much. He also said that if it doesn't work out with mom then he didn't want to be here. He said he has to make alot of changes. Which he does for mom to come back. He is getting back into church and he said God has to be number one is his life. I am so glad for that. That makes me feel so much better. Needless to say mom and dad went out on their first date lastnight, trying to see if it can work out. God answered my prayer cause he soften dad's heart to come back to him. I want to thank everyone for all the prayers that have been coming our way. Thank yall so much. My brother did text my dad and said he really did love him and he was sorry. He was just made that night and didn't mean that things he said.