alittle stressed and depressed

Well my body did its thing before I had to head to the doctor. Which was a relief. I got put on Clomid, which is a fertality drug. yes there is a small chance of twins but only a small. I had to only take if for five days. Hopefully it will make me ovualate and be regular. Now We are just waiting. I do go back to the doctor next week on the 8th. So we shall see what he says. I got depressed last week and bj told me we were in this together and not blaiming each other for this. Made me feel alittle better but its just so hard to see everyone else around me becoming parents or getting pregnant. Not that I am not happy for them cause I am but its hard not to be jealous and wanting it too.


My parents are going to get a divorce and that plays a big tow on me as well. It is so hard because for birthdays we always go out to eat or my mom cooks as a family and my birthday is next week. So we wont have a family get together for the first year so it will be very hard. So I chose to go to lunch with my mom and my nana on my birthday. Bj is going to take me to dinner that night. I can't beleive I am turning 25. I feel like I am 16 still.


Mom's body scan results came back and there was no cancer anywhere else. That was a answered prayer. God is really helping me through all of this crazy life right now. If I did not have him I would not know where to begin.


We had a girls weekend this past weekend at the lake house. There was 8 of us and we had a great time. We played games and we went to eat at fisherman's warf saturday night and played more games. We all just got away and had a great time.