Exciting News!!

Well I went to the Dr on thursday of last week, I told yall now we just have to wait and see what my body does. Well on day 37, which was the day before I had to go to the dr. I decided to take a test before I went to the dr on thursday. Well I woke up really early cause I could not sleep. I went and took a test and.... it came back POSTIVE. I was not believing it. I looked at it again and then got so excited. I went and woke BJ up and asked him if he was ready to be a dad. He didn't beleive me at first till I showed him the test. He wanted me to go take another just in case. So I did and it came back the same thing. Well we decided not to tell anyone till I went to the doctor the next day to confirm it. Went to the dr and he said I was really pregnant. He told me I was only a month pregnant so I have to got back on April, 22 for a ultrasound to make sure we are not having twins. Because I took that fertality drug there is a 25 percent chance. God answered our prayers and we are so grateful for it. I could not quit thinking God for this answered prayer. Now I am just praying for a healthy baby. When I go back to the dr. I will be 6 weeks and two days. I am just praying there is something there and a heart beat. I know God got us this far that he will take care of us whatever he has in plan for us. I have been sick a few mornings, but thats about it. I havn't been really tired yet or anything. I will let yall know what the ultrasound reveals in two weeks. Just keep us in your prayers.

alittle stressed and depressed

Well my body did its thing before I had to head to the doctor. Which was a relief. I got put on Clomid, which is a fertality drug. yes there is a small chance of twins but only a small. I had to only take if for five days. Hopefully it will make me ovualate and be regular. Now We are just waiting. I do go back to the doctor next week on the 8th. So we shall see what he says. I got depressed last week and bj told me we were in this together and not blaiming each other for this. Made me feel alittle better but its just so hard to see everyone else around me becoming parents or getting pregnant. Not that I am not happy for them cause I am but its hard not to be jealous and wanting it too.


My parents are going to get a divorce and that plays a big tow on me as well. It is so hard because for birthdays we always go out to eat or my mom cooks as a family and my birthday is next week. So we wont have a family get together for the first year so it will be very hard. So I chose to go to lunch with my mom and my nana on my birthday. Bj is going to take me to dinner that night. I can't beleive I am turning 25. I feel like I am 16 still.


Mom's body scan results came back and there was no cancer anywhere else. That was a answered prayer. God is really helping me through all of this crazy life right now. If I did not have him I would not know where to begin.


We had a girls weekend this past weekend at the lake house. There was 8 of us and we had a great time. We played games and we went to eat at fisherman's warf saturday night and played more games. We all just got away and had a great time.

God will take care of us, he always does

Mom went in last week to get her other side of her thyroid taken out. She did very good. Good news is the results came back and there was no cancer in that side. God answered a prayer. We are very blessed. She now has to go on a iodine diet for 7 to 10 days. You don't realize how much stuff has iodine in it. She can only eat 5 oz of meat a day. She said she will be in a horrible mood cause she can't eat anything. Then she goes in for outpatient to get her radiation pill. The reason she has to go on that type of diet is cause the radiation pill loves iodine and if her body is starved of it then it will go straight to the source. Then after that she has to get a body scan to make sure cancer is not anywhere else and then she will start her thyroid meds. Then she will be in the clear with lots of medical bills which she is very stressed over. But I know God got her through this and he will get her through that.

I went to my primary care doctor last wesenday cause bj kept telling me I needed to go get a physical since I have never recieved one before. Well I went and the doctor told me my aorta is very prominant in my stomach. So I had to go get an ultrasound and haven't recived the results back in yet.

Well me and bj have been trying to have a baby for almost a year now. Well I got off the pill last april. I was on the pill for seven years and had a period every month. Well I was irrigular before i got put on the pill. Now that i got off the pill I do not have a period. My OBGYN told me to wait 9 months to see if I start on my own. I finally did at 9 months and the dr. said I should be good to go. Well now it is day 59 and nothing. Took test and negative. Called dr. and he told me to wait 90 days and if nothing then he will give me something to make me start and then start me on fertility drugs. Well we have a long road ahead of us. It is very hard to be patient and wait when we both really want this. I now God is in control and he knows what is best for us. We just have to let God do his work in us and it will happen when God wants it to happen. Just keep us in your prayers please. I will let yall know when I head back to the dr. in april.

Since I have been so stressed out bj did something really nice for me to just relax. I got home on a friday night after work and he closed my eyes and walked me to our bedroom. He told me what I needed to wear was hanging on the door. It was my dress that I wore going away from our wedding. When I was getting ready he made me a margarita. Then when I was ready he walked me out to a candle lit dinner with an appitizer in the middle of the table. The lights were all dimmed. He had chilled wine in the middle of the table. When we sat down to eat he put music on to play in the background. He made a new receipe called chicken tofe. It was chicken theighs with bacon wrapped around and cream of chicken, sour cream, cream cheese on top served on a bed of rice, with green beans. He did so good. It made me cry. He is some pics of what we have been doing in the beginning of 2010.

God answers prayers!!!

This past week or so has been a really bad week for us. Last weekend topped it all off. I have been praying for my parents every night. I pray for God to soften my dad's heart and let him back in. My dad has not been living a christian life like he says he is. My dad has harden his heart to God and to everyone else around him. I try to tell him that God is not going to answer his prayers cause he is not giving anything back to him. His life is in shambles. Needless to say my mom told my dad she was done. She didn't want to do this anymore. My dad fell hard. I have only seen my dad cry once or twice in my life. My dad called me crying so hard that I could not understand him. Begging to not let mom do this. He loves her so much. I told him it was not my decision to make. It is her life. He wanted me to talk to mom cause she listens to me. My dad is a manic Depression. He was talking about killing him self and text me that he loved me very much and hates the way its got to end. I got very upset. Bj got mad cause he just said dad wouldn't do it. Needless to say his dad killed him self when my dad was 17 years old. Bj called my brother to see if he got the same text. Needless to say he didn't. My brother had been drinking that night and went to my dad's house and through him on the ground and told him he hated him and always have. Told him he wished he was dead. That did not help the situation any better. Bj was just upset because he was tired of me being put in the middle of my parents problems. I told him I would not make him choose between his parents. Then I asked him about forgiveness. God forgave us and he tells us we are suppose to forgive others. No matter what my dad does I will still love him because he is my dad. I might not agree with him one bit but he is still my dad. I forgave my dad. My dad text me this week and asked if he could talk to me after work and I said yes. He sat me down and appogized for everything he has done to hurt me and all his actions. That is a big step for my dad to say he is sorry. He said he was wrong and he loved my mother so much. He also said that if it doesn't work out with mom then he didn't want to be here. He said he has to make alot of changes. Which he does for mom to come back. He is getting back into church and he said God has to be number one is his life. I am so glad for that. That makes me feel so much better. Needless to say mom and dad went out on their first date lastnight, trying to see if it can work out. God answered my prayer cause he soften dad's heart to come back to him. I want to thank everyone for all the prayers that have been coming our way. Thank yall so much. My brother did text my dad and said he really did love him and he was sorry. He was just made that night and didn't mean that things he said.

Life can get complicated at times

Sorry about not writinng, I have been awful. We have been so busy. Well lets see, what have we done. Pretty much, all we have been doing is working and bj's been working and going to school. He got throught this semester by his hair on his chin. He made all C's, at least it is passing. I know he is so tired of school. I don't blaim him. I have been trying to stay together with everything going on with my family. My parents are saperated and that is really hard on me and my brother. At least it has brought me and my brother alot closer. My mom found out she has throid cancer and already got half of her thyroid removed and has to go back in feburary to get the other half removed. It is really hard on her because she has to go through this with my dad and deal with her surgeries. I keep telling her it is in God's hands and he knows what is best for her. She is a very strong lady. Bj has been so good and has always been there for me when I just need to talk. When we found out about the results of mom's surgery, I just had a crying spell and bj just held me and let me cry. I could not have asked God for a better husband. He is my rock.

Me and the girls planned a trip to branson two weeks ago and it was so much fun. It was fun just to get away and forget about things and just shop. We shopped and shopped and ate. It was good bonding time.

Me and bj just opened chistmas presents for each other, a day before chirstmas. But at least we waited this long to open them. He got me, two pull overs, Frappiccino maker, target gift card, stuff to make frappiccinos, a cup to put in it, tennis shoes, a soft throw, and some warm socks. He did very good. He loved his game camera, fishing pole holder, and his jeans. We had a very good christmas and we have more to come tomorrow, that is if we can drive there since all the roads are flooded here in saline county. Bj tryed to make it to work this morning but could not make it cause the roads were all flooded.


We want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I hope everyone has a safe and happy holidays. We just want to remind everyone, don' t forget the reason for the season. Jesus died on the cross for our sins. Remember God loves you and always will. He will never let you down if you just give your life to him. He will take care of you and that is what I got to keep telling my self.

Just sit back and enjoy what you have now

Ever wonder why things happen the way they do? I do all the time. At the time of them happening I don't like if it don't go the way I want it to go, but later down the road and looking back I am very grateful for the ways things turn out. God really does know the bigger picture and knows what is best for us in our lives at the time and for the future. I am very grateful for everything we have. We would not have any of the things we have without God. I just have to wait and watch what God is doing in our lives right now instead of waiting day by day and wondering why.

With everything that is happending to others around us and with their relationships, makes me very grateful for my relationship with bj. He is so good to me and very loving. He is always there for me when I need him and I am always there for him. With hunting season just opening we don't get to spend out of time together. We only get to spend like 3 or 4 hours together a day because we both work and he will be gone every weekend. If we did not have God in our relationship then we would be in trouble.

The number one thing to remember is God will take care of you if you just let him and ask him for help and give back to him for what he wants.

God will take care of us!!

ok, what have we been up to, we have been working and working. Last weekend we had a girls weekend at the lake house. It was me and all the girls on my dad's side of the family. There was 12 of us there. We left right after work on friday and came back on sunday. That was the best weekend yet. It was so nice to get away and just be girls and not wives. Me and mom and my brother's girlfriend leslie had alittle to much fun friday night and saturday was not a good day. It was nice to get away from everything that has been going on here in the past few months. Needless to say my family has been going through a lot here lately. But the good thing that has come out of is so far is that is has brought me and my brother alot closer. I know if God put you there he will pull you through it. I just have to have faith in him and trust him to pull me through it.

Bj's birthday was this past friday and I got up at 5:30 and made him a big breakfast. I made him a breakfast casserole, bacon, chocolate gravy, and biscuits. He woke up to early cause he smelled it. He was very surprised I cooked him breakfast because I am not really a breakfast cooker, he is. It was very good though.

I have alot on my mind these days and going through alot. I just keep praying and praying for things to get better and I do beleive God will take care of me and get me through it. I just would like everyone to keep me in yall's prayers.